已经九年没有在家过春节，来新的第十个年头终于要回家过年了。只买到了除夕的机票，希望可以及时到家吃团年饭。

 

本命年就这样不知不觉间溜走。学习工作各半年，中间去了趟加州。开始工作后才知道自己是多么的无知与无助！半年后的我还是在茫茫大海中挣扎，连救命稻草的方向在哪儿都不知道。菜鸟的炼狱在新的一年还在继续...

 

终于在刚参加工作之际尽了点孝道，将父母接来新玩了一个月。结果变成服侍我一个月，每天帮我打扫房间，煮饭，洗衣，哎...尝到甜头的我还准备今年十二月再将父母接来...

 

体力越来越糟糕，打球的机会越来越少！不知来年能否改变这现状？

 

 

I'm happy and satisfied with my 4 years of study in NUS. On the very first day when i stepped into NUS, I set one and only one task for myself, to obtain first class honor. I was so happy when i saw my last semester results online two days ago. I have been always worried that I might not get a good grade for my final year project, coz the examiner really 'raped' me with tons of questions which i could not answer at all during my thesis presentation. It was a nightmare!! The final grade, in the end turned out to be not bad. think i'm just a lucky bustard. but of course, i really should thank my project supervisor and all the research fellows in the lab. they guided me along the way. Thank you so much!

 

I have accomplished more things than the mere task. I had 2 years of great experience in Sheares Hall. I made into the basketball varsity team. I got a gold medal for a major basketball tournament... All these are so important to me. they will be part of my sweetest memories.

 

The biggest regret is that i didn't get into the NOC program, after 2 attempts. i didn't get a chance to immerse myself in the culture of silicon valley and stanford. Nevertheless, i always look at it from another angle - if i were selected for the NOC, i might not stay in sheares, or wear the NUS basketball jersey, or obtain the only gold medal in my bball 'career'. once i think this way, i'm relieved. 塞翁失马，焉知非福!

Finally, I got my visitor's visa to the States! Haven't decided which airlines to fly yet...SIA is expensive, it's like 200 dolars more than North West or United Airlines. but considering its quality service, and the 16 hours of travelling time, i'm really tempted. Will leave immediately after my last papar and stay there for 2 weeks. Golden Gate Bridge, Stanford, L.A., Las Vegas, hopefully Grand Canyon...AND... FACTORY OUTLET SHOPPING! heard from a friend that a pair of basketball shoes cost like 30 USD there! haha not gonna miss it!!!

 

Just finished my FYP draft thesis. Presentations during the next two weeks, and 2 more term tests coming along. Think it'll be the last critical moment of my undergraduate years. Farewell to NUS, soon...

 

Anyway, suddenly feel that life's all about making choices. there are so many roads in front of you, leading to different directions... whichever i may choose, just hope that i won't regret in the future.

最后一个学期过了一半，发现自己实在已没有动力读书了。每天昏昏沉沉的去听lecture,然后偶尔去lab昏昏沉沉的做一点FYP，其余时间就完全和书本无关了。觉得就应该这样，工作以后再没有可能这样懒散的生活了。所以剩下来的两个多月我要继续每天早上看NBA直播，然后尽量频繁的去打篮球！

 

 

 

 

 

很久没有写点什么东西了，最后一年的前半学期就耗费在FYP和找工作上了。嗨！现在已是越来越没有动力，起初的热情已经被漫长的等待消耗的所剩无几。所谓谋事在人，成事在天，没准哪天运气好真的收到一份offer，看造化吧。刚才又在youtube上将东邪西毒重温一遍，也不知道是第几次看了，反正没事的时候就看一下东邪西毒或重庆森林。王家卫的电影只看过这两部，就都上了瘾。黄药师，欧阳锋，慕容燕（独孤求败），盲剑客，洪七...

 

'不久前，我遇上一个人，送给我一坛酒，她说那叫'醉生梦死'，喝了之后，可以叫你忘掉以前做过的任何事。我很奇怪，为什么会有这样的酒。她说人最大的烦恼，就是记性太好，如果什么都可以忘掉，以后的每一天将会是一个新的开始，那你说这有多开心。'

 

'那天晚上我忽然之间很想喝酒，结果我喝了那半坛'醉生梦死'

 

'没有事的时候，我会望向白驼山，我清楚记得曾经有一个女人在那边等着我。其实'醉生梦死'只不过是她跟我开的一个玩笑，你越想知道自己是不是忘记的时候，你反而记得清楚。我曾经听人说过，当你不能够再拥有，你唯一可以做的，就是令自己不要忘记。'

It's GCup again, but i won't be able to play this time. Quite unwilling to admit, but the fact is, our batch is considered old boys already haha. not as old as the Classics old folks, coz we can still run up and down the court energetically for 4 quarters, but the team size is shrinking every year... I wonder if we can field a team of 5 players this year. Hmm, Darren, Nansi, Wai Kit, Joshua, J Gan, and Yi Wen probably. Okay a team can be formed, but you guys got to stay on the court for all the 4 quarters, without sub haha. Wai Kit, pls don't foul out during the first quarter lol.

 

The annual GCup is more like a gathering session for the old teammates nowadays. all the names mentioned above, except for Darren and Wai Kit, I haven't met you guys for at least one year already. and poor Jiun Haur's still having internship in the states now. and Gabriel, where are you? us or sg? can't wait to catch up with you guys!

回到家2个礼拜，武汉实在是太热了！白天37度的高温，迫使自己只能待在房里不敢出门，只有傍晚偶尔出去溜达一下。现在每天的生活就是睡觉，吃东西，上网，看电视...悠闲至极！

 

还只剩下十天左右又要回去了，Year 4生涯即将打响。而且下个星期开始bidding round，马上就得收拾心情开始学习，嘿!...

为期半年的IA终于在星期五结束了！这半年来每天早上645起床，720出门，在车上睡一个小时后845到公司..太有规律了，实在是很痛苦！现在最惬意的事就是每天睡到早上11点！不过想想，在不久的一年之后自己每天都要6点多起床了，哎...这半年的工作真的很辛苦，不过感觉自己成长了不少。没有学到什么新的知识，但是得到的经历却是宝贵的。

 

假期开始了！没有什么具体的计划。7月6号回武汉，在此之前应该会一个人去马六甲看看，然后和一些朋友聚一聚，回RI看望一下Mr. Lam，打篮球，看电影。工作的时候才深切的体会到，简单舒适的生活就是享受！

 

My result is decreasing constantly over the past three years I think. If I plot a graph of my score against time, it’ll be a perfectly straight line with negative gradient. Not a good trend. Momentum is losing and less amount of effort has been put into study. I only got one more year left as a student, and after that, no more textbooks or lecture notes. The 5 months’ internship has taught me how lucky a student can be and how enjoyable study can be. I am going to put more effort on study during my final year.

 

Nowadays it’s so quiet in hall. Not many rooms’ lights are on in the evening. No more supper crowd in the comm hall. It’s so quiet that it does not look like a hall anymore. Suddenly I miss the noise of the level 6 guys after midnight, though sometimes I got really pissed off with them coz I just could not sleep when they were shouting and ponding at each other along the corridor. But it feels so great when you see friends around after you come back from work. Noise is the trademark of hall. And it brings so much fun, when you are not sleeping.

 

4 more weeks to the end of my internship. I’m going to give it a good finish.

昨天第一次周末回公司做OT.早上10点到晚上9点，难得一个星期六就这样在电脑前度过了，头痛！已经可以预见到剩下的两个半月一定是忙得焦头烂额。这薪水实在是不好赚啊！！

 

转眼间这个semester就接近尾声。熟悉的study week(或者说是last minute mugging week)又来临了。可这次是以旁观者的身份看着身旁的每个人喝咖啡，熬通宵。现在想想，整天泡在central library的滋味是那么的亲切与遥远。i miss those times man!!!

转眼间做intenship两个月，已经习惯这种工作的节奏，也没那么多抱怨了。只是对自己不断增加的体重感到不爽，难怪以前看到那些学长们一开始工作后就个个心宽体胖。不行一定要遏制这种趋势！

 

发现自己的酒量实在不怎样，没喝多少就倒下。既然要买醉，就别花那么多钱买酒，直接去chem lab弄点90%的浓酒精喝不就得了。

I'm exhausted recently... muscle ache everywhere... christmas is coming pretty soon, but before that i have to go through a series of trainings first. later there is ivp friendly at the salvation army bball court from 1pm to 3pm. immediately after that there goes our ihg bball camp, which will last until tmr noon... And then, i'm free, for 1.5 days... dun know what to do yet, but there is one thing for sure: i won't stay in my room! i'm sick of my room already. i just wanna go and breathe the fresh air outside...

wish everybody a merry christmas...

密集的疯狂训练终于在星期一正式开始。昨天经历了从早上8点到晚上9点的不间断训练，晚上躺在床上时全身酸痛。现在每天的生活基本上就是训练，睡觉，训练，睡觉...没有时间出门，没有时间玩电脑游戏，没有时间看drama...这个月一定要坚持下去，就像我的队长对我说的那样：只要熬过去，我就变成superman了。队长的话比较夸张，但我至少可以成为ironman，哈哈....

 

Training Schedule
Mon	Tue	Wed	Thu	Fri	Sat
IHG Handball (7pm-10pm)	IHG Basketball (8am-11am)   IHG Volleyball (4pm-6pm)       IVP Basketball (6pm-9pm)	IHG Handball (8pm-11pm)	IHG Basketball (9am-12pm)   IHG Volleyball (1pm-4pm)       IHG Handball (8pm-11pm)	IVP Basketball (6pm-9pm)	IHG Basketball (10am-12pm)   IHG Volleyball (10am-1pm)

 

 

 

下午考完最后一科，正式标志着这个学期的结束。考完后心情异常平静，没有以前的那种激动与兴奋。

 

很想对自己的这个学期做一个总结，可是心中的那么多感受却又说不出口，还是留给自己一个人慢慢体会吧。总之这个学期肯定是自己大学四年里最忙的半年，真是庆幸能成功熬过去。

 

接下来的三天有很多事情要去做，这也是唯一能彻底放松并享受的短暂时光。从星期六开始就是魔鬼般的12月地域训练。目前手上已经拿到了basketball与handball的训练时间表:礼拜一到礼拜五每天早上9点到12点，再加上还没确定的IVP basketball以及sheares hall volleyball的日程，看来我每天都要在SRC度过了....

 

the last thing i want to say about this semester is: whatever academic result i'll receive at the end of December, I'll never regret what I have experienced within this half of a year!!!

已经考完一门。坚持下去，熬到下个星期二就好了。

 

加油！

积累了两个多星期的不爽终于在今天爆发，已经很久没有对自己这么pissed off了。当5点半回到房间发现再次忘记将EE2001的portfolio从lab拿回来的时候满腔怒火终于爆发。连续一个多月严重缺少睡眠，精神不集中，做事没有效率，异常高频率的丢三落四。整个人的状态实在是太糟糕，令自己难以忍受！

 

晚上篮球训练完后心情已经平复下来。其实发脾气，不爽只是反映了自己的差劲。难道每天从早上9点到晚上10点的学习+训练就已经让自己彻底吃不消了吗？？难道在压力下就只会整天抱怨了吗？？那么这么多年训练出来的mental toughness到哪里去了？？既然这种生活方式是自己选择的，我就一定会坚持下去！COME ON, PUSH YOUR LIMIT!